What i dont understand is myself… plain and simple. i thought i knew who i was and where i was going. Then i graduated high school and reality hit me square in the face. I got a job which i love but ya know is that what i really want to do for the next two years? I can not make any major decisions because i am afraid of the consequences. how great am i? i am afraid to take chances and i am afraid i will turn out like my parents hateful toward each other and never really happy… just constant contention…and they dont even live with each other! which is an amazing decision on their part. I just wish that i didnt hate this certain person at my work place… he makes it hard for me to be myself when he is around. I just wish religion didnt always get in the way. but i let it because it is my life…. but no one understands why. I WILL TELL YOU NOW! it is the only thing that has not changed in my life. it is the only thing that has brought me constant happiness when my world has been falling apart that is what this person at work didnt understand about me and never made the effort to find out why i was guarded and the way i am. i just wish he and everyone else would understand that.
Monday, October 11, 2010
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