You Know… The Usual

Hey everyone! I know it has been a year since I have posted last but, you know. :] I am a very confusing person lately so you should feel thankful that I haven’t posted in a while.

I don’t know where I am going in my life. It feels like I am running in quick sand.

BBUtttt, it will work out! I can feel it in my bones! A big change is coming but, I can’t quite put a finger on it :T oh well.

Do you wanna know what i really love? Foreigners that come into the store and ask me if I have sandwiches for them :] they are so cute and confused.

 

For some reason I also love this song i discovered on my Pandora Station! It kinda looks like she is lip singing but I like the song anyways :]

It is Called “stay” by Mozella

Do you wanna know who else I love?

Colbie Caillat!

 

Keep Smiling even though life sucks… It will be better than you could ever imagine!

:] :[ :D

My life has been a little crazy lately... not that I am complaining :] This weekend it is the 181 General Conference! What an amazing expirience I will have! We have the opportunity to attend the Sunday morning session!! The only downside to this is that we are leaving at around 6:00 in the AM hours so that we can get there on time. The following people will be participating in this little adventure :] : Kenzi, Angela, Kialeen, Ellen and of course her husband (Because who else would be willing to drive around a car full of girls?) Oh how I have been waiting for this weekend. I need a pick-me-up of a spiritual nature! I know that God will tell me what I need to hear even if it is not what i want to hear :D

Now going on to my next subject... The California Trip with the institute this May. Sidenote: I look back and it seems that everything in my life revolves around my religion... coinsidence? I think not. Out of the side note!! WE get to go to two count them two Temples I am so excited that I might pass out :]

Can you Guess which ones they are? :] They are the LA and San Diego Temples!!! Two days In the Lord's House! I feel so blessed... this is just what i need!! (Besides Conference of course). Oh how the Lord blesses me When i start to forget. I am just so greatful for his Patience and understanding!

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It is funny isn’t it?  The way things work out? This week has been a rough week for me and for others around me and i don’t even know why. Today i just miss everything about last year. It has been a year since i moved in with my grammy and i now live in price. Oh i miss her so much it hurts sometimes, because she has always been there. Lately i hate being alone, i hate driving to school alone, going to work alone, studying alone, just being alone. I know i am a poor sap but hey what can you do? I am so stinking confused in every aspect of my life that at times i dont know if i can handle it. I dont know what i want my major to be, i dont know if i want this same job even though i love it. I am confused on the guy front but i am not even going to get into that. I dont go to church regularly though i desperatley want to more than i will ever understand. I wish i knew what my life was going to be like in a year with all these choices i am making now. I have research paper due in two days a huge test in four, i have to work and deal with the fact that i cant bring myself to go to the meat department without the sudden urge to cry or throw a steak. It just sucks sometimes. my life. even though i am so blessed and i cant even acknowledge it. that those around me and the lord above obviously see something that i have been missing for years.